shallow.

slept at 6 in the morning, with millions of things running through my head. woke up couple of times in the morning by the burden i carried to sleep feared for what may happen next.

i wonder is it really me that stirred up the whole thing. must i really seize all the platonic friendships that has been build up over the years i'm here? never knew the effort of enhancing the friendship can easily misread as giving signals. ergh. boys. and yet they say we ladies think a lot.

looks like the only option i have here is to think twice before interacting. keeping my cool and poise. securing my personal space and strictly no nonsense with, boys. i seriously do miss my Penang friends now. i miss how we can exchange real hugs occasionally, make fun or fool around with each other without fearing that each other will have misconception. they're much more fun to be with. i'd better stop saying more else i'll miss home :)

lesson learnt. what i used to practice back home with friends can't be practice here. not with this group of friends i suppose? sigh. havent been having a good day since yesterday. except for the movie Up In The Air starring George Clooney. the air-cond wasn't functioning well the entire night, sauna-ing in my sleep. and the worse part was i woke up realizing i cant make any outgoing calls or SMS. line suspended TT

anyway, i'm leaving to Amsterdam tonight. haven't started packing either. guess i'm just going to R&R there and prolly room service all the way. till then..

i miss those times we had